This past week, I have been pretty psycho (and that’s putting it lightly). Ask my family, my best friends, and my boyfriend, and I’m sure they’ll be polite about it, but the truth of the matter is that I have acted crazy.
I don’t know if it was the fact that I was stuck in my dorm due to the blizzard, the anxiety of the snow that I always get, or a combination of those and other things, but I was just on the edge the whole week. One minute I was so happy I was singing a silly tune, the next I was hysterically crying telling everyone I didn’t want to speak to them.
Holy emotional roller coaster.
Thankfully, now I am feeling much better. But, looking back at the last week and how crazy I was, I fully realize that I worry too much. I have been that way my whole life, worrying about endless things – from things as silly as the weather to bigger, more real things. Many times, my worries are unjustified and totally ridiculous. When I worry, I get emotional and anxious, am beyond irritable, can’t sleep at night, and my face breaks out.
I am, all around, a worry wart.
I am fully aware that my worrying adds nothing good to my life, which is something I have to remind myself of over and over, each time I have a negative thought or begin to fear the worst.
I wish this was something I could change, and slowly, over time, I have been able to lessen these fits of anxiety, even though they sometimes (like this week) make their awful return.
I am always looking for ways to feel calmer in times of worry and stress, and this week on Pinterest I saw this quote:
It really struck me as so true and although I know it won’t eliminate my worries completely (I don’t think anything ever will), it does help me find peace.
Why do I put so much time and effort into thinking about what I don’t want to happen? Why not use that energy envisioning the outcomes I am hoping for?
This is something I am, very slowly, working on changing about myself in order to just be happier.
I know it’s a challenge, but I think that every day is a step in the right direction.